I only feel good after i cried for hours and have nothing left in me . When my breathing is heavy and im in the dark because only a half of me is down and my pain is what makes me better. I cant stand to see someone elses because i feel pain every day. I dont want anyone to start. I used to love life and smile every second now I do a fake smile so people dont worry. I have a heavy feeling in my chest but i wear a fake smile and try to hold my head up high to be diying inside