if I kill myself, my parents would loose it. they would cry and grief. I don’t want them to that. i want them to understand that I didn’t want to exist anymore, that I don’t want to be alive anymore, that I’m hurting and suffering. I just don’t understand why I’m in this earth, and why I’m so miserable. who would put me in this situation? I don’t know. I just want to commit already so I can stop hurting.